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so after the medicine mcq and meq paper which didn't go too well (okay honestly when i went back to look at the paper it isn't that hard but i swear when you're stressed you don't see the big picture + you put stupid answers tt you normally wouldn't choose), i was pretty much stressed for the OSCEs and shorts.

honestly,  i already mentally prepared myself that if i were to screw up, it would be my own damn fault for not studying hard enough/practicing in the wards enough for the past 3 years:/ i can't do paeds nor adults neuro for nuts. for one i have NEVER done a paeds neuro exam. adult neuro i barely did a few and even then, i never ever get the diagnosis-.- i can elicit the signs, but i can't piece them together to form a clinical picture:( and i cannot recognise many gaits unless it's super damn obvious or if it's parkinson's or dmd or sth unique/easy.

i also suck at haem and haem onco:/ i can do thal and hemophilia but anything like ALL CML and all that ET and PCV, my knowledge is damn shitty, evidenced by how i got like 90% of the haem onco questions in the MCQ wrong:(

and my last weakness is acid base disorders, all the mixed resp/met things. on good days i get it, on bad days i'm blur as hell.

so anyway, today, i was praying very hard that i wouldn't get difficult cases/strict examiners. and guess what? I must say Thank you God, for answering my prayers and giving me not only relatively easy cases, but also very very kind examiners for my medicine shorts. hearing some of the horrendous cases that some of my friends got and how i would have just died so badly for them:/ im really utterly thankful for what i got.

Tmr is long case and i'm pretty tired already:( back to studying..